It really doesn't take all that much to change my mood sometimes, and they are just pretty small things in a lot of ways.
One thing that happened today was that I had a phone call from my mother saying "Did you hear from LW?" I had no idea who LW might be, and then she said - "oh, LW from St Ms" which was one of my old schools. Apparently, the girls who were in my year at St Ms are having a 20 year class reunion in a couple of weeks and they hadn't been able to locate me. Now, I only went to that school for two years, and even then it wasn't the last year of school, so I am somewhat surprised that they were even trying to find me. The next thought was ...... "what the heck am I going to say to someone that I haven't even spoken to for over 20 years."
Third and most overwhelming thought.....Does my mother really think that I am going to go to a class reunion, when I now weigh at least double what I weighed when I last saw those people. I don't think so! As far as I know the reunion is some time in March, and is in Adelaide. As there is no way that I can get any time off in March because of work, and the fact that Adelaide really isn't my most favourite place to go (because of some of the people who live there, not because of the place) there are any number of reasons for me not to go, but if I am being honest with myself the number one reason is my weight...in many ways a very shallow reason I know! It will be nice to have a chat with LW, if I ever get up enough guts to call her!
I guess the other thing is that it is probably reasonable to expect that the school that I did finish high school at will probably have a reunion this year as well. One reason why I didn't have to worry about this 10 years ago is that I was living in the UK at that time, and there is no reason I was coming back to Australia for one or even two school reunions. I have no idea if the other school I went to during high school even has such things!
I guess this kind of event does make you contemplate a little what you have achieved since you left school. I know if I am not being too hard on myself that I have achieved quite a bit, but since when have I not ever been too hard on myself.
There are other things that happened today! It is Shrove Tuesday today - also known as Pancake Day, so all my colleagues and I went out to Pancake Parlour for lunch. It was all arranged on short notice, but we still managed to stuff ourselves with savoury and sweet pancakes. I was so full I ended up having cornflakes for dinner tonight! I had already bought pancakes to have for dessert tonight, but I could not possible face any more pancakes for another couple of days at least!
With Shrove Tuesday being the day before Lent starts, I did give a moments thought to what I am going to give up for Lent. I don't normally worry about it, but with my thoughts being somewhat morose already I am thinking about trying to give up normal Coca Cola - I am addicted to the stuff, and I know that I really could do without all the extra sugar that I imbibe every day, but can I possibly give it up for 40 days?? I will ponder that one some more, and maybe see if I can do one or two days!
So that I don't sound complete wingeing cow for this whole post, I did also want to post something positive! I had a really good conversation today with a person who I have been friends with since I was 15 years old. Even though we now live in the same city (which hasn't always been the case) we still don't see anywhere near enough of each other. Whilst a lot of the time we have fun little conversations which involve lots of teasing and taunting, today we had that but also quite serious and honest conversation about a few things we don't normally talk all that much about. That's not because we don't know that we always can, but simply because it isn't always practical! I don't tell him enough that I love him, but I do, and I hope he knows it. When we do spend a little time talking, even if it is only on the phone, I always feeling uplifted.
And now I am tearing up....dammit.....he'll be so proud that he made me cry!!
After such a long and rambling post, what else can I do but reward you all for your diligence with a CBeebies story with Richard Armitage - and there is a very, very, very small connection to at least one thing in my post!!
What??? He mentioned Flat Stanley being flat as a PANCAKE! I did say it was a very small connection!